Slut-slave in training
From the outset can I thank you for our wonderful first encounter and for the privilege of being accepted as your slut-slave in training. It was clear to me the moment I laid eyes on you that my future lies at your feet, suffering for your pleasure. The fact that you have actively encouraged me to list my further thoughts and comment on our first session demonstrates the care and commitment you have so obviously dedicated to my training – for this I am eternally grateful. Please understand that I am being totally honest in my words below, not to dictate or criticise (where that may appear to be the case), but to give you yet further insight into my very soul such that you may exploit this knowledge to your own ends and for my future subjugation.
Considering the many pitfalls that lie in the path of a first session and the inevitable nerves on the part of the slave (or should I say slut in my case?!), I can say nothing more than it was a triumph, a testament to your undoubted dominant skills and the beginning of a new journey for your slave. I enjoyed the theatricality of the surroundings and your resplendent beauty. I am very visually orientated and the theatre of domination, especially the scenery and clothing (PVC), are paramount in my submissive psyche. I was privileged to be physically close to you, my eyes devoured your beauty, I was spoilt by the glimpse of the extremes to which you will no doubt take me in my training as your dungeon slut. Mistress, I cannot get out of my mind you fiery eroticism, your sophisticated demeanour, your overwhelming beauty and your dominantly seductive voice - I believe I have found my new long term Mistress!
It is true to say I was somewhat nervous at the outset – primarily because of my recent negative and damaging experiences with so called professional Mistresses. Mistress Tanya, with you it was different – the nerves thereafter were because I realised I was in the presence of my present and future Mistress and so wanted to please you, to get it right. I soon realised I was in the hands of a true expert and the nerves were replaced by fearful excitement as I understood the ways you will exploit my slut nature as only you can.
As you also know, I need to be lost in the fantasy and part of my training as your slut is the forcible administration of amyl and “smoking”. Mistress could you be very aggressive in this respect, making extensive use of the masks and hoods – I would particularly enjoy being subjected to your own specialist equipment as I am probably too familiar with my own (except the amyl mask with the inflatable gag which continues to fascinate me as it gives you so much scope for experimentation e.g. fill one or both vents, pump up the gag etc). The more I am relaxed with you the more easily I can take it. I was due to go to a meeting straight after our first session and that’s why I asked you to remove the mask quickly and why I didn’t smoke more. In our next session I wont have to worry about that – I am yours for the day - and so would ask that you be far more forceful! It excites me so much when I think you wont take “no” for an answer, when you enjoy seeing me struggle, when you push my limits in this respect, when I think you have finished only for you to resume all over again, when you have used the amyl bottle only to follow it with a mask, etc. Its great when you decide how much I should take, in other words if you don’t think I have had enough to force me to take more, regardless of my protests. My hood with the 2 nose holes is very effective if you hold the amyl bottle or a cotton pad over them, particularly if you are teasing/wanking my cock and whispering what terrible things you plan for me at the same time – heaven again!!!.
Mistress, I have a particular craving to be kept in extreme rubber bondage when not being used. That is, rubber slut clothing, inflatables, hoods, gags, masks, etc. The idea of being in full rubber bondage, possibly strapped in a chair or trussed up in a cupboard, where you periodically come in to stick a dildo in my mouth, or stick a slaves cock in my mouth, is mesmerising – this fantasy truly excites me! I love layers of bondage: complex hoods, combined with gags and masks – the whole paraphernalia of this sort of extreme bondage is so exciting because it means I cannot fight back or stop you doing terrible things to your slut.
My other weakness, and aid to the most fulfilling experience, is to smoke. I am grateful that you have been so understanding about this and I will never abuse this kindness. As the effect wears off very quickly though, I look forward to you forcing me to take more through the afternoon – could you be very forceful and aggressive about this, saying things like: you have to keep your slut drugged up so I can be used by all those slaves you are going to hire me out to? One of the ramifications of this is that I might not be a very capable and co-ordinated after I smoke. Maybe I should dress (or be dressed) first before you order me to smoke, so that I am not too clumsy and slow when doing this? Mistress, as I write this my mind has wandered to the sublime thought of the first time I glimpse you after having smoked, as you walk through the door; bliss!!!
As far as my slut training goes, I am both fearful and excited by the prospect that you will push me well beyond my limits. I will do my best within my physical limitations (I still find it painful – but in the future hopefully you can fuck me anally to – I will practice at home?) and am always guided by you in this respect. Mistress, can I reiterate caution concerning my back and anal penetration. There is also the dilemma of observing safe sex practices (which is both your own and my first priority) and being trained as a true slut - I bow to your experience but I cannot help craving to be a slut. The idea of being left in sensory deprivation, where you periodically administer amyl when I least expect it , and also periodically force a slaves spunky cock into my hood face is both alarming and exciting. Maybe for the moment, I could be your oral slut, where you ram large dildos and real slaves cocks into my mouth – how far you go is of course up to you?!
Mistress I crave the touch of your gloved hand on my worthless body – I have the image of you resplendent in PVC as you stand before my shackled form, caressing me and driving me to sexual distraction as you instigate a “milking” regime, manually stimulating me to near climax throughout the session, only to wank me to climax in your honour at the end!!! Mistress Tanya, at times throughout the session can you tease my cock and wank me, particularly after first taking the blindfold off each time to reveal a stunning new PVC outfit – you are so beautiful, I would lying if I pretended I didn’t dream of this!?
Mistress, I have rambled on enough, but your dominant beauty does rather rob a man of his senses! Thank you for deigning to see me – I will always do my best to be worthy of your strict loving attention.
Your slut-slave, Ex